When he listens to my economical problems and see that I am in need he lend me money so I can get food and other things that I need to buy just to survive. He has got bad concience about my situation. But I think that he shall not have bad concience, it is me that shall have it. I feel like a beggar all the time and I need to pay back huge sum of money due to the fact that I didn't get any help when I was sick, really sick in depression. I feel so bad when buying stuff, I feel so bad each time I buy some chocolate or even a regular book. I feel ashamed about my very cheap christmas-gifts. And still my dad is there helping me out.
I love him.
And this text can also be written ecaxtly in the same way about my boyfriend. He also helps me alot in this situation. I love them both "my G's" as I call them. My boyfriend is Glenn and my dad has got the name Gert so therefore "my G's".
Love Leelene
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